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A World Within a Reality of Chaos
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Alter Echos
Blogging Molly
cactusandquail
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Fox
FUGLY!!
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Headscratch
Hejin
I love being gay
I Need A Grip
Jackal
Jesly
Kenny
LimBueyTor
Maddox
MsBeesKnees
Mystiqc
No Time
Ooh Lookie Here!!
Rockson the BIG HORSE
Siana
Sick Little Plant Man
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The Manolo
The Pelican
*loading*peeps into my redhead
So! I guess i'l be coming back here a lot more now.. for these couple of months at least... since i've got all the time in the world and nothing much to do bcuz bcuz bcuz - we'll get to that eventually.
but for now, this is it! becuz i've to go have my din dins soon... mummy's here making my special dinner since i ain't allowed to eat or drink much of anything else while i'm recuperating. in fact, i'm not allowed to do much of anything else meanwhile, except lie flat on my back and rest. that's what i've been sternly instructed to do nways.
yep. the word is CONFINEMENT.
thank gawd for sneaky frens bwahahahahahah!!
i'll be back. go figure :P
yep this is weird and, even when shrubber suggested coming back here a couple of times before, i didn’t feel the pull to return. Over the experiences of the past year, i’ve come to realise why i used to blog so much... it was usually when i was feeling really empty and alone, or else it was cause the boredom was eating into my brains at work and, since u can’t be obviously bored and surf porn in the office in full view for all to see, u gotta at least LOOK like u’re working... and typing away as though u were buried churning out some marketing plan or other, usually does the trick.
In the past year and some, i seem to have recovered the stability i need in my life –that doesn’t mean that i neva had bad times and sad times when i’d to resort to pills and poison, but i was slightly beta able to handle my pain – at least contain it till such time when i was able to iron it out and regain the balance and be ok again. Even happy. I realised that around me, everyone was changing, things change all the time – change is the only certainty, and pple evolve with time, and so did most (note that i didn’t say all) of my buddies. Maybe it comes with the maturity of age, but the stormy periods eventually passed on for most of my sistas, and a gradual stability set in. everyone seemed to settle in nicely in their lives together with their partners, and though i still wish we all could meet up more, i realise that such things take a conscious effort cuz when pple get so cosy with their lives, they tend to be lulled into this false sense of security and think that they’re in a good place now with their partners and assume that’s gonna be the case forever.
Sometimes, pple forget that shit happens.
And shit will happen cuz that’s the way life is.
But pple forget, and so they get so lazy and take so many things for granted that they dun bother much to make the effort to ketchup with the other frens and loved ones in their lives, and then when shit happens, well, their world comes crushing down and they find they’ve got no one there to turn to anymore. But i digress.
There’s something bitter-sweet about the things i’ve gone thru with my sistas in the past 2 years. It was an awfully exhilarating roller-coaster ride full of debauchery and sin, yet there was as much pain involved as there was pleasure.
But generally, i’m happy that things seem to have settled down nicely for most of the pple i care for. Many things have changed and i guess we all have to learn to embrace life as we all grow up together and enter into the next stages of our lives. That is the only way to not fall behind and become an old isolated foggey y’noe? Grow up but still maintain that carefree fun. TOGETHER. Cuz that kind of bond doesn’t come along everyday – that transition from girl to woman... that happens only ONCE in ur life, these buddies who grew up with u, long before we all became tainted by the bitchiness of reality, they are irreplaceable. I realise again, not for the first time, that i often sidetrack too much when i’m writing. Oh well.
Nways, my previous job left me no time for sleeping or catching up as much as i’d have liked to, with anyone. And so i eventually stopped coming here altogether. I was just too exhausted and didn’t have the time. So one might wonder what i’m doing here right now... was it reason 1 or reason 2 that brought me back? Sorry, no sensational stuff to tell here. Cuz hehe it’s reason 2 – and that means, congratulations! I’ve left my previous job! And so at this mo, i’ve got way too much time on my hands and my thumb’s just bout to fall off from all the twiddling. Woohoo i hope life gets beta and work gets more manageable. Shan’t diss the place i just left cuz though the workload was a never-ending shitload, it was extremely draining, dynamic and satisfying. And i learnt so bloody much bout the big picture, and best of all, i’m no longer scared of those wriggly numbers! Unbelieveably, sometimes i even love to play with them for kicks – it makes me feel more clever hahahaha. A more confident and well-rounded me left the job.
But most of all, i loved my team to bits! Bossly was a super foul-mouth loudmouth who was also the coolest and crankiest and drove me up the wall sometimes but oh so brilliant! I loved her and would give anything to eat that brilliant brain of hers. i wanna be her. if things were any different, i’d love to work with her forever. And as someone who draws a very thick line between colleagues and frens, i was pleasantly surprised that i’d made frens with the sweet biatches in my team. I lurve em all to bits (except maybe for just the one... kinda iffy... that one) and am sad to think that there’s probably neva gonna be another team like that. We’d go out together and genuinely have shitloads of fun and they introduced me to a different side of life. I left them behind to continue swimming in the shit but i truly miss them. Going thru the shit we went thru together really bonded us.
Say, shit IS the strongest bond! Hur hur.
"... i really miss u n wish i could see u more often... Nways u take care too and dun be a stranger! :-)"
it's been a while now. too long.
i'm so tired.
so drained.
i didn't mean not to come back here but.
12hr work days... with no time to catch enuf sleep, much less do anything else.
now. i. need. to. sleep.
and drink. yesssssss.....
later ;)
u noe how, when u drive on the roads, (local) taxi drivers seem to act like kings?
u noe how, taxi drivers will always cut into ur lane without signalling, not giving a damn that they almost caused a near collision?
u noe how, taxi drivers seem to always get right of way on the roads and can do whatever they damn well please and drive however they damn well like becuz... they are...
TAXI DRIVERS.
u can curse and swear at them all u want but there's really nothing u can do bout it becuz... they are...
TAXI DRIVERS.
so everytime a taxi cuts into ur lane suddenly, u go 'BLOODY HELL! UNCLE?!?!?! WAT THE $#&@!!' and then the next thing u say is,
"what to do, TAXI DRIVER whaaaaaat!!!" and den all u can do is fume and continue on ur merry way cuz the taxi driver doesn't give a freak wat u think.
so while driving last nite, it suddenly dawned on me that i noe someone who personifies the term TAXI DRIVER perfectly. this fella, he's quite an arsehole himself but loves nothing beta than to indulge in idle gossip and comment on the whole world around him. like as if he's in the position to do something like that... he's not - but he doesn't care. he's the bitchiest he-bitch around (even bitchier than my female frens). so nways, not gonna waste saliva talking bout him - suffice to say that now when i see the way taxi drivers behave like they're damn big fuck and can act in anyway they want and get away with it and u can be pissed all u want but there's really nothing u can do bout it (cuz pple like that have nothing to lose - so if u got into a brawl or argument with them, u'll end up getting scalded real bad)... i think of He-bitch and his trademark self-proclaimed cb mouth.
*shudders and shakes off remnants of a bad memory*
gonna head down for a puff now. can't be bothered with a pathethic little twit like him.
eh.
i am sick of being an ahmad oredi.
having ur own set of wheels is fun cuz u become mobile and u can go wherever u want.
dat said, u also lose the use of ur legs.
work. i am so. tired.
i wish i could give u more but.
i'm. bout to.
drop dead.
out.
of.
sheer... exhaustion.
i. just.
wanna say. i.
miss mah. SISTAS!
yeah. can't wait for.
Xmas.
YAY!
i noe i noe... i haven't been back here in ages. my bad. but.
so i've just returned from a week long roadtrip in the states. it was wicked! many hours travelling on the roads though... but it was all worth it! the shopping there is just FABULOUS DAAAAHLING!! incredible, to say the least. i dunno how many months of salary i blew there. but i'm so happy i did it yay.
Coronado is such a beeeaaauuuutiful place! the entire place looks like it was cut off a story book. lovely lovely lovely. pity i'll neva have the moolah to buy meself a home there. :(
Old TOwn in San Diego is so cute! the pseudo authentic candy stores... candle shops... cigar house.. barn museum... shopkeepers dressed in mexican outfits.... it's just so. damn. cute.
we neva made it to the lighthouse at Point Loma cuz twilight fell too early, while we were halfway there (night falls at like, 5pm). so we settled for the scenery along the coast.
we hit las vegas and ooohhh it was to the casinos of cuz. i'm not a gambler... so it didn't take me long to get sick of having the machines suck my moolah. a few other frens were not so lucky heheh. the only thing i like bout being in the casinos - the FREE alcohol mwahahahhaahahah. sweet.
Caesar's Palace was gorgeous. so much extravagance in the architecture. ceilings painted to look like the sky... creatures of Greek mythology carved everywhere... it was truly breathtaking but somehow it just felt so wrong to me. the whole time amongst all that splendour... all i could think of were starving third world countries. budden, Las Vegas brings in 25% of USA's money so there. who's complainin. they sure can afford all that extravagance... gold plated windows and what not.
the last road trip took us 10 hours on the road, to and from Nevada to Arizona to see the Grand Canyon, and then back again, all in a day's work heh. Grand Canyon is A.M.A.Z.I.N.G. i tell u, if u really wanted to commit suicide, u could jump off one of the cliffs there and u'd be guaranteed dead a thousand times, ur body smashed to millions of bits and pieces and neva to be put together again. ever. ever. ever. nways it'd take a few days to see the entire grand canyon and the immense cold made it impossible for us to stay more than a couple of hours. we were happy campers after taking a few photographs heh.
so after another 20hour flight, i'm back. and it's back to the grind. and i'm still suffering from jetlag. so yeah i'll check back in a while cuz i gotta go crash now. :)
i can go cruising now with the music blasting away ;)
the best thing bout it was doing it with my gurlfrens. totally wicked.
we went out without a cashcard and without tickets - thank god the only thing i'd remembered to do was top up the fuel. but we were good to go nways. after we parked, i realised i needed parking coupons, and i had none.
simple.
i looked for someone to buy a coupon from. spotted a couple going back to their car. i went up and asked if they had a spare coupon i could buy off them. the girlfren stared at me stonily. the boyfren got to work digging for a coupon (i realised that he himself didn't even put any... prob was too stingy to do so).
he dug and dug and found me hia last hourly coupon. passed it to me, i passed him cash and he politely refused. just absolutely refused. i smiled sweetly, said thanks and went back to the girls. not that i'd intended to but i'd scored a free parking coupon nways haha cheap thrill. LOL
u see it's good to be a girl sometimes. all u gotta do is look helpless, smile and ask for help. guys will usually try to be the hero and help. hur hur hur.
bouncers: "hi! whose guest are u tonite?"
DS: "my own. here *pointing to the namelist* that's my name. and these girls are with me."
bouncers: "oh u're darkscarlette! we've been hearing bout u... do u mind giving us ur particulars here" *pointing to another namelist*
DS: "sure. thanx."
it sure helps to be babe when u go to clubs. even beta if there's a grp of u. in time, the bouncers and waiters know u and the door bitches have no choice but to smile and be nice to u too cuz they want gorgeous pple to go to their clubs to help pull in more crowd. simply put, it's harder for guys but way easier for girls - if u're not one of the lucky ones who're naturally babelicious, and in the event that even make-up doesn't help, no worries there's still hope yet. u can also get urself noticed by dressing like a skank hussy or wearing so little clothes that u might as well not bother. clubs like that cuz they noe that guys like that and guys will most definitely frequent a club which offers them lotsa eye candy. got us a couch area though i asked at the last min... nice ;)
the pussycat dolls are hot. i digress but i just wanted to talk bout them cuz they. are. hot. leadsinger nicole is hot. and so are jessica and kim the redhead. i like em! female empowerment. wicked. ohoh just saw the Gorillaz performance on the Europe MTV Music Awards in Lisboa - i'm in lurve! they are like SO cool! i'm in lurve with their animated alter-egos hahahahah cuz they've neva made a public appearance and even their supposedly LIVE performance at the awards show was presented by their animated selves wow ~ i lurve their brand of music... it's just so... slunger hehe oh and here comes Shakira! i used to lurve her for her unique style but ummm... gotta say she's not looking as good these days... think it's to do with that horrid au natural wild woman look and that bombastic hairdo. and madonna still rocks even at this age. ain't anyone else like her nope.
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